Confession: I’m not doing so great at this Advent thing

December goes fast for me, I assume for you too.

I have loved getting to think and talk about Waiting on God with so many people this Advent season, but I have a confession: I’m not doing a lot of waiting on God, at least not at the moment. Last week was full of meetings and the weekend was holiday parties and wedding showers and one concert and performance after another. Sleigh bells are ringing and drummer boys are dancing and the halls are decked and I am already worn out. PLUS I’ve barely made a dent in my Christmas shopping. Sigh.

Everything that is filling my days is GOOD, I know not everyone can say that. But I’m not taking the time to breathe, to give thanks, to notice all this goodness. And I’m finding myself snappish if not yell-y with my kids. Truth: I’ve made both the younger two cry this week, and it’s only Tuesday.

When things are this busy, the problem is not that I don’t have a moment to sit still, to embrace stillness, to remember the reason we’re celebrating. I have those moments. But when things are this busy, the lure of my phone, of mindlessly passing the time is so strong. I haven’t even been trying to resist it. I’m on my phone first thing in the morning, last thing at night and way too often through the days.

Waking up to my phone, wasting the few quiet morning moments I have, not leaving any breathing room in my December days is clearly not working for me.

What am I going to do?

Well for starters, I just stopped typing and spent a few moments praying, confessing to God what I just confessed to you. Remembering that His grace is for this moment, receiving His presence, embracing His love. And I asked Him what to do.

The first thing that comes to mind is not a shocker: I need to put my dang phone down.

I need to commit to not touching my phone in the morning until I’ve read, prayed, done the things I know my soul needs first thing in the morning.

I need to think of a few slow things I enjoy doing and choose those things instead of messing around on my phone, grabbing quiet moments in my day.

I need to slow down and give my kids my full attention when I’m with them. I want to respond to their rambunctiousness with attention, not aggravation.

I need to slow down and give LIFE my full attention. Checking things off a to do list isn’t living. Checking social media isn’t living.

I don’t want to rush and grouch my way through December.

How’s your Advent going?


Not Great at AdventPicture used in image Photo by Dimitri Yakymuk on Unsplash